Her Ocean's Heart

Slowly… I’m sinking

To the ocean of emotions

To the fear of your touch

To the depth in your eyes.

The blue ocean offers no clarity

With a promise of teardrops

To melt with the waves,

Inside my palm, gone in a glimpse.

Your eyes drew an ocean

A new avenue of pain

Some doleful happy thoughts

Hopeless smiles and the blame.

You are the ocean I’m afraid of,

The ocean set to convict

I cannot swim, I cannot dive

‘coz I was never made to fit.

Still the huge waters fooled me

Enticed me with its crystallized glow,

Forever blue with its breeze

Embracing my sorrows and my flaws.

Inch by inch, the waters hugged my toes

Taking me deeper into you

Stuck on your breast, stranded; unharmed

Aching, Bleeding, ‘coz your heart, still too far.

Though expectant of the hurt your eyes showed

I let down my defenses; my fears, I let float

Now I’m walking in tiptoe, trying hard to breath

Soon the land will be gone ‘coz the water’s too deep.

Yes, falling in love feels like drowning

Drowning in an ocean you don’t know.

Drowning in an ocean full of uncertainties,

An ocean where death is sure.

Well, I chose to pant and run after death

Like lonely people always do

Rather than stay safe and sound in a shore

Never in her ocean’s heart, yet always too close – just too close.